{"id":2203,"date":"2009-12-11T15:37:13","date_gmt":"2009-12-11T15:37:13","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/www.bargh.co.uk\/blog\/?p=179"},"modified":"2009-12-11T15:37:13","modified_gmt":"2009-12-11T15:37:13","slug":"one-year-on","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/bargh.co.uk\/blog\/one-year-on\/","title":{"rendered":"One year on&#8230;"},"content":{"rendered":"<p><a href=\"https:\/\/bargh.co.uk\/blog\/wp-content\/uploads\/pete-2795.jpg\"><img loading=\"lazy\" decoding=\"async\" class=\"alignright size-full wp-image-180\" style=\"margin-left:10px;\" title=\"pete-2795\" src=\"https:\/\/bargh.co.uk\/blog\/wp-content\/uploads\/pete-2795.jpg\" alt=\"pete-2795\" width=\"200\" height=\"291\" \/><\/a>This is my thinking aloud. It would probably be best kept internal, but it helps to put it down on paper so to speak. And this is where I put things down.<\/p>\n<p>It was the same Friday one year ago when I came away from hospital&#8230;at this moment in time I&#8217;d sat in a chair waiting to be discharged after five days of the strangest period of my life. I&#8217;d had an unexpected heart attack and I hadn&#8217;t seen it coming.<\/p>\n<p>Now a year on I know much more about the heart and healthy living, but from a personal point of view I&#8217;ve changed. I used to think I was a 20+ year old in a 40+ year old body with an energy and fitness level of a 30+. Now I feel more like a 50 year old in 40+ year old body with a 60 year old fitness level. They say you go through an period of denial. Well mine seems to have continued. On the outside I put on a brave face, but on the inside I&#8217;m still feeling shaken by the whole thing.\u00a0 I can be thankful I&#8217;m still here, and I now know that certain food and a more active lifestyle is necessary, but I haven&#8217;t exactly done anything drastic with my &#8220;wake up call&#8221;. Ok I&#8217;m eating more fruit, nuts, fish and less chocolate, cheese and cakes, but\u00a0 I seem to be wasting much more time, turning down more invites, avoiding more things. It&#8217;s a weird feeling, like I&#8217;m not in total control. That&#8217;s hard to accept from someone who likes to be in control.<\/p>\n<p>I&#8217;m going to have to do something&#8230;I&#8217;m just not sure what yet.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>This is my thinking aloud. It would probably be best kept internal, but it helps to put it down on paper so to speak. And this is where I put things down. It was the same Friday one year ago when I came away from hospital&#8230;at this moment in time I&#8217;d sat in a chair [&hellip;]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":2,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[1294],"tags":[1517],"class_list":["post-2203","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-diary","tag-confused"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/bargh.co.uk\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/2203","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/bargh.co.uk\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/bargh.co.uk\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/bargh.co.uk\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/2"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/bargh.co.uk\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=2203"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"https:\/\/bargh.co.uk\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/2203\/revisions"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/bargh.co.uk\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=2203"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/bargh.co.uk\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=2203"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/bargh.co.uk\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=2203"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}